Dirty Little Secret

Let me know that I’ve done wrong
When I’ve known this all along
Go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you

Tell me all that you’ve thrown away
Find out games you don’t wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know

I’ll Keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don’t tell anyone or you’ll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Who has to know

8:00am …

This was the last song I heard on the radio this morning while I was riding a jeep to work. Another LSS(Last Song Syndrome)phenomenon. It’s Dirty little secret by the All American Rejects.Cool song actually.

5 Hours later… I’ve just finished my lunch but I still keep on singing the song in my head and out loud. I can’t get it off my mind just as I can’t keep you out of my mind. The songs remind me so much of you. . .my very own dirty little secret. Damn that song! It’s ruining my lunchbreak nap…I’m tripping down memory lane now.

A few memories later…

It was just another ordinary day. It was October 4, 2005 ,7:00pm to be exact. I was overdosing in chat again. An afternoon torture I get myself into to get my mind off food. I was attempting to diet that time. Anyway, out of the others messages that popped in my window screen. The one from you got my attention. It was your nick that got my attention. It was Pinoybigbrother and because I was addicted to the show that time I thought that I’ve found a kindred soul. Anyways, we did chat about PBB then we added each other in friendster and then we exchanged numbers (easy girl! Hehehe). When I got home I was surprised when I received a load from you. That’s the time when you really got me interested hehehe And so we texted and you called and we decided to meet the following day. And so we meet and we …sigh! If I have one word to describe our meeting…it would be WOW! That day changed my life. I know that I’ll remember that night for the rest of my life. I think years from now when I’ll look back at that night I can’t help but blush & giggle like a schoolgirl. You’ve made my every fantasy come true. You brought out a side of me I never knew existed. You’re so generous, gentle, sweet and wild. You got me hooked. And so we met up again & again & again. And it was always the same…the hint of danger…the adrenaline rush…the wonderful feeling of doing something bad and the possibility of getting caught. I can’t stay away from you. I know this is wrong but I can’t help it. I’m only human and I’m weak. It’s been 5 months and you’re still in my life. You’ve outlasted my other boyfriends. Too bad I can’t totally have you but maybe its better this way. NO strings attached. I don’t know where this thing is going but all I know is you’re part of my life now…my very own dirty little secret. Hey,i miss you. Are you free tonight?