Mincing words

Sometimes there are words that you thought you have to say but the moment you let them loose they sound foolish and they lose their meaning. Sometimes words really do get in the way. Or maybe I just didn’t find the right words to say. I talk of abyss and self preservation when a simple “I like you” would do. Now why do I feel the need to say that? I don’t know. I blame it on the movie, my flair for drama, my Cinderella or whatever complex is it I’m suffering right now, sex starvation, blowing things out of proportion and acting on impulse. Or maybe I don’t like to be called a Schizo and want to get back by really acting like one. There are a lot of excuses I could think of right now; I’m the queen of excuses and . . . STOP! Here I go talking in circles again. All I really wanted to say is that “let’s forget the words and let’s get on with the friendship”.

P.S. This is actually not the first time that i almost died of embarassment due to the words I said. I even remembered a time that i wanted the earth to swallow me on the spot or get out of town or get a Toronto plastic surgery and alter my face so nobody would recognize and perfect my face at the same time.And like i said, i’m talking in circles again….damn!

currently:in the middle of nowhere

song in my head: How soon is now by The Smiths