Wake me up when September Ends

Last Wednesday the girlfriend of our classmate died. She was found dead on her bed with her mouth frothing. Rumors of suicide immediately circulated. The family requested for an autopsy but is mum about the result. The boyfriend, our classmate is clueless about the real cause of death since he’s away in Singapore. But he said on chat yesterday that she seemed okay and that they were doing okay and that they just talked two weeks ago. He’s really grieved by the death esp. coz he can’t return home due to work and financial constraints. Her death saddens me coz even though I only met her once she’s still young and I’m sure have a promising future ahead. Too bad about the rumors of her death and too bad that she brought whatever ails her heart or body to her grave. I just hope that she’s in a better place right now. (more…)

Random senti-ness

I’m back to my old way of procastinating. I’ve been doing nothing since morning though based on my “To DO” list I have a gazillion things that I should do . I blog hopped my way through lunch and attempted to write something but I can never seem to get past the first line. Whenever i think of something to write, my mind starts to wander and I can’t get it back.I reviewed some of my drafts but still I’m too lazy to  finish or edit them that I decided to post them as they are just to clean off my drafts.I’m not really on a senti or emo or whatever mode but found many senti drafts so here goes: (more…)

Char2x lang

It’s been a hard day’s night and

I’ve been working like a dawg!

I was trying to look for a picture of a hardworking dog but found none and got the laughing one instead(which i got from nyglenniles and I got to thinking. Why dogs? Aren’t Carabaos more hardworking than dogs? Who coined this phrase anyway? The Beatles?Does it really matter who works harder? Dogs or Carabaos? Am I really up for a debate? Am I really okay?Sigh it’s really been a while since blogged that my thoughts are running astray! So wazzup with me?It’s been a month since I transferred to this department and so far “I’m still” happy. I’ve just been busy that I was not able to update this blog as often as I would like. Our boss calls me at 7:00am and sometimes texts me as early as 6:00 am that’s why I don’t turn off my cellphone anymore. We travel a lot lately and we’re even working on Sundays. It’s just that he handles both Operations and Logistics and our group usually caters to his needs like cost benefit analysis and other studies at a short time notice. At first I didn’t feel the urgency of my our work that I actually said to my workmates “Uwi na tayo, char2x lang yan!” Just a few seconds after I said it, our boss called and told us not to go home until we finish it, so much for char2x I’m working like a dawg but I’m happy coz I feel useful and I love what I do. It seems like my one month work output when I was still at audit is equivalent to one day here. Well, so much about work. I think being busy is the cure to my blog addiction. I used to look at things and not see them as they are but see the words like “flower” instead of the flower itself. Every time I do something I would immediately compose an outline in my head for this blog. Needless to say blogging doesn’t occupy my mind 24/7 anymore. I thought of going on a hiatus to sound mysterious hehehe or totally quit this blog but I can’t seem to do it. Not because I’ve been attached to this blog but because of my cousins and friends and the friends I made through this blog. Actually they’re one of the primary reasons why I stuck to blogging. At first blogging was an outlet for me but now it became an avenue to meet some really interesting people. Some of my blogmates have become my chat mates too(Hi jae!). And blogging pacifies my ego. Admit it guys, reading those comments and tags as Jae said is euphoric hehehe I mean the fact that somebody will actually read the crap that you wrote is inspiring.

I just want to send some shoutoutz to those who made my blogging worthwhile :

-my blogmates esp. to alma for the various comments

-to those who quit blogging,analia and fencesitter ,you will be remembered

-to those missing in action, kuazee, alvin ,psyche,rubyann

-to those who just got back from hiatus, carey, anomaly, welcome back!

-my cousins and friends who reads this blog..pagtuon mo ug comment uy LOLz

and to radx for sending me the popsicle mp3s…thanks!

P.S. ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAE!I wish you nothing….but the best.mwah!

The Blower’s Daughter

I first heard of the song “The Blower’s Daughter” from the movie, Closer(Love the movie!). It struck a chord in my soul (naks!) that I replayed the first part in the movie several times so I can listen to the music again. The song sounded familiar and so poignant that I vowed to find an mp3 of it. But of course like so many things I vowed to do, I forgot about it. Then accidentally I stumbled upon the song as I was browsing for mp3s in multiply today. I actually found a lot of mp3s(you can listen here) by Damien Rice, the one who sang it. To those who don’t know him, he used to be the vocalist of the group Juniper. He’s from Dublin Ireland (many talented singers from that place). He’s a singer, song writer and painter (Whoa!)The images above are some of his art works. His voice sounds so melancholic and he really writes beautiful minimalist music.Listening to his music feels like looking at a beautiful painting with your mouth hanging open I just can’t put down into words how to describe his music coz I always end up sounding sarcastic whenever I describe something I really love and might ruin it for you

I like the Blower’s Daughter song so much that I decided to make it my blog OST for the moment. The song was about a girl he loved that he decided to make a song for her. However, the moment he sang it in front of her, he realized that he don’t love her anymore( Talk about truth setting you free). The “blower” that he’s referring to here is his Clarinet Teacher, the girl’s father.

You can find the lyrics below: And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can’t take my mind off of you
I can’t take my mind off you
I can’t take my mind off of you
I can’t take my mind off you
I can’t take my mind off you
I can’t take my mind…
My mind…my mind…
‘Til I find somebody new

Haler

I am a Haler.  I first heard of Hale from a friend and I got the impression that it was another acoustic band with a female vocalist and I thought it was Hail. Anyways, when I heard of Broken Sonnet, I loved the song on the spot even before I knew that Champ is a cutie. And when I heard “The day you said Goodnight”, I vowed to buy the album. When a classmate asked to borrow my notes from college, I asked him to give me a cd of Hale in exchange.Then I got to see them live around August last year.That’s when I officially declared myself, a Haler.I like their songs and their emo lyrics coz perhaps i’m emo(there i said it). Admittedly Champ is not the best vocalist but he makes it up with his smile LOLS Go hale!

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dreams

A little girl woke up sobbing.Her mother asked her “What’s wrong? Did you have a nightmare?”The girl shook her head and said “No mother I had the most pleasant dream”.“Then why are you crying?” Her mother asked again.The girl replied “Coz I woke up and realized it was only a dream”.

Everybody has dreams. Big dreams. Small dreams. Dreaming with eyes wide open. Dreaming while asleep. Dreams that comes from the subconscious. Dreams borne of the heart. Dreams invented by the mind factory. We wake up each day hoping for that dream to materialize. Some sit on a corner, glazed eye with their fingers crossed, staring into space and waiting for a dream to happen. Others shed blood, sweat and tears all in the name of dream. Sometimes we work so hard for a dream to come true and we don’t even realize that it had. Sometimes we have dreams that we wish all our life to happen and when it does it loses its essence.

I dream. I dream for dreaming sake. I live in a dream world where I make up my own reality.In a world where unicorns and true love still exist. In a world where I conjure places and faces out of thin air. I don’t care if my dreams come true or not. I dream my life away and make it last rather than live a dream and knowing it won’t last. Maybe I’m just not ready to let my dreams go and wake up to this farce called life. I won’t wake. I’ll only wake when its time to sleep.

Popsicle

Friends, blogmates, lurkers, lost netizens directed here by Google…I need help! I’ve been looking for the Popsicle albums (Abstinence and other albums) since time immemorial. Don’t know the band Popsicle? Oh go get a life j/k :-p It’s an alternative band from Sweden that was popular at my side of the planet during 90’s. I’m pretty sure you’ve heard of their famous songs; Histrionics “Leave me locked and leave me lame” and Not forever “Coz I can change, am not the same, not forever” I guess they’re not really that popular coz I even had a hard time looking for info about the group. Anyways, I’ve searched for their CDs at all record bars I’ve visited but to no avail. I even asked my friends abroad to help me but until now got no feedback yet. Also searched it in the net, lime wire, multiply and etc. but only found histrionics. I have a tape but it won’t play anymore Anyways, if you have mp3s(coz i know a CD is too much to ask for) of any Popsicle songs, kindly send it to me at florainea@gmail.com and I’d be indebted to you for life.