avalanche

January 29, 2007

In relation to my previous post. I was calmly back floating on the serene pond of my life. Waiting for the leaves to turn green and for the ice to melt when out of nowhere I heard a distant rumbling and before I knew it an avalanche is speeding its way towards me.

It was a lazy Saturday morning when I decided not to report for work coz I wanted to catch up on my sleep. I was out of town for a week and I always have trouble sleeping in hotels. So I called in sick for work and slept the entire morning. Later in the afternoon a friend invited me for a children’s birthday party and after that we went to the mall. And that’s when it happened. A year after our breakup I saw my ex. It was totally unexpected coz he lives 5 hours and a million light years away from my hometown. I felt my ears getting hot and I saw red everywhere. I feel this intense urge to split his skull open and scatter his innards all over the place. He was alone but he seems to be waiting for someone. . .maybe his alleged wife and baby that he boasted to me when I refused to see him a few months back. But I gained composure and decided to just ignore him. My friend and I decided to watch a movie, Zu Warriors which by the way abso-fucking-lutely sucked. The movie claimed that it was “the” Lord of the Rings of Asia but I didn’t see a ring anywhere and anybody resembling Legolas or at least papa-ble enough. And the plot..where was it? I felt like I was just watching a power point presentation of the sky, explosion, caves and flying objects.

Back to my drama, in the middle of the movie my phone rang and I accidentally answered without checking the caller. It was my boss…darn. He called to ask how I was and where I am. For a split second I thought of lying but with the Double Surround system, I knew I couldn’t pull it off so I told him I was inside a movie house. He then said that he’ll just text me. He didn’t, so I asked my officemates what he could have wanted. They told me he wanted to enroll me for the Management Development Program offered by UP. Dammit I really wanted that but I think I just blew my chance. Anyways, when I got home later that night I discovered I forgot my house keys and waited outside for quite some time for somebody to wake up. I got another shock when I saw a snarling Labrador beside me, fortunately it was chained. After moments of panic I my dad finally let me in and casually informed me that we have a new dog.

To top it off when I got to my room and turned on the radio, I heard Daniel Powter singing “Cause you had a bad day You're taking one down . . .” What a perfect ending to a perfectly ruined day.

Ok I just made that last one up just to make things more dramatic.

That night, I wondered if only I went to work that day, will things have turned out differently? Or days like these like catastrophes can’t be predicted nor avoided? Anyways, I can’t do anything about it now and I decided to let go of what if’s and go on with life and… blog about it